The time before work begins
I was trying to think of something deep and meaningful to write about for my first blog post. I had all these thoughts about writing something about artists and illustrators who found their creative careers in their 30s, or something about capturing something beautiful you see every day. But that is not the vibe this morning.
The reality is, I’m sat on the sofa with a cup of tea. My phone is in my hand. And all I want to do is produce something that is all my own before work starts.
I have 30 minutes to spare.
In the past year I’ve got into a sort-of habit of waking up just that little bit earlier to draw or read or write. Ive noticed that, in the days where I manage to do this, I feel so much more fulfilled and energised.
I did have a season where I felt like it was just - eat, sleep, work, repeat - and I started to feel resentful towards the time that my job was eating up. MY TIME.
I am one of those people who is very aware of my own mortality. The shortness of life makes the fact we have to give so much of our time away to be able to afford to live seem, honestly, a bit frustrating.
Why are we not using our precious time and skills to work on our own stuff- to grow our own dreams?
I still sometimes ponder this, but the early morning starts where I can work on my own stuff for an hour or so, really help alleviate that feeling.
To go into a day of work after putting yourself first is one of the best things. It’s how it should be. And for me, it means I can start my job knowing that however much time I spend at a desk, its not prevented me from making waves towards my own personal goals. And in turn, that makes me feel so much more positive about work, which leads to more fulfillment and less bitterness. (Because at the end of the day, if I really want something it’s up to me to make opportunities for myself). Society wasn't built for me as an individual, so I have to manage the cards that have been dealt.
10 minutes till work starts. I should probably change out of my PJs.
Thanks for joining me this morning and when you schedule your time today, remember to put yourself first.
- Minnie
